Sand and Soil

December 22, 2006

Part 40 Ozone Hole

Joel Akin

If the Ozone Hole is the hole that leads to heaven then some will ask “How you can know?” How you can know is like watching a train go by. The train forces air away from the side and then it takes that air and streamlines it along the top all the way to the end where the caboose should be. Then it lies down quietly on the tracks.

There isn’t any problem and there is not solution to fixing a hole that isn’t broke. It is a hole because it is a tunnel and the tunnel is the entry point for Ozone to Enter in from space. Space is the core of this issue and from the center of the hole the ozone inters and then spaces itself upward where it then filters down like water through soil of various sizes. The thinner air stays at the top and then the other airs are then filtered out by the sun. Think of the sun as being a giant magnet. Each air particle is taken into the light and then is energized. That energy then flows downward into the hole. I is a hole created by God to let air in and not let air out. If it were a hole like they want then there would be no air to let in. They would block it up with too much Ozone. That would be like trying to fix a plumbing job by adding more water. It would be the dumbest thing you could do.

And if they add some other element such as ice or tree or fish those things don’t bother the air hole. They just go up or down depending on the current. If you want to add something to a hole to plug it up use anything but don’t try to use Ozone.

Think of this. Ozone is part water. If you add water to make water that is like trying to add fish to make fish. You can do it but that means you are trying to add fish to a soup because the soup is too weak when the soup is made up of fish.

Now if Ozone can be thought of as fish then some would say that we are running out of fish. So then you go to the hole where the fish live and you throw in more fish. It would work perhaps if you were far away from earth and then tried it. The air molecules around earth would accept the molecules of air as being tried in the rigor of space and they would then be okay. But the power to transmit energy that far would require a nuclear power plant set on super high and it would have to be near Venus. So since Venus doesn’t affect Earth and they have a greenhouse effect quit saying we’ll become like them soon if we are not careful. You don’t plan to become like Mars but that is the more like scenario unless you have a nuclear war over food in which case you’ll end up with a hole bigger than earth.

Now here is the specific knowledge dealing with the Ozone. It is a tripart oxygen molecule that is interfered with by men. The first part is O or oxygen. The Oxygen is meant to be carried to the flow where the hole is. It meets ozone come down. It says “That isn’t normal. I am Ozone on the way up to meet the rest of the gang.”

It then drops down and begins circulating on the floor, which is the base of the hole, and it goes out and tries to find a way to rise. It can’t. So then it goes into the soup, which is the mess they are creating. It then goes up and begins taking the soup nature. That means you have an item of pure oxygen amidst the three parts of Ozone. Now the other two parts of three things. First lets deal with the simple part. Ozone isn’t meant to be of things that are burnt by men. If you use an ozone bomb to bomb the atmosphere expect there to be a temporary hole in the ozone. It will flare up and burn away the one part of the atmosphere that has an excess of oxygen. This will lead to a confluence of other shapes of molecules based on hydrogen. Hydrogen isn’t meant to be explosive. It is meant to be part of the tree. The tree is meant to be part of the court and that court is meant to be like a tennis court where Hydrogen and Oxygen meet and bounce back and forth.

Now when these things don’t work properly there is a spiritual rise in understanding. That means I write what I gain in prayer to help fix the problem. That means if you read it and try not to laugh you’ll begin to see I’m not a scientist. I just have knowledge and that is enough for this story.

Now God does plan to stop men soon if they don’t stop trying to fix the hole. Now some say “How can I know?” I don’t but if I am writing with Gods help then it had better be happening. Having denials from Government won’t stop me. I know that men sometimes obscure truth. I will just say it isn’t possible that there is still ice there. I can tell you there really is water there. And I can say it is going to dry up there.

I can also add the Ozone Hole is going to get bigger soon. How big is up to us. We can let it get big enough to let in a massive ship from heaven but that will not stop the hole from expanding. God doesn’t need to come in through the drain. He wants to come out of the Heaven which He made in the beginning. And that means there is a heaven above and a Heaven above. That means there is Heaven, heaven and earth. That means if we think about it Earth isn’t Earth Middle, like Tolkien wondered but we are Lower Earth. That means we are the part of the system that is meant to recycle the garbage of two Universes. Heaven one and heaven one.

Lets just say God allowed people to see that there really is a big H and a little h. And they are part of this story to help me write it with understanding. Otherwise I write with my own life which can get boring.

Now the Ozone Hole is practically bare and that means there is not a lot of oxygen flowing right now. Some will say that doesn’t mean much because we don’t know the way things work. Imagine that if there were two parts to the system and both parts were under siege then they would both slow down.

Now if a waterfall slows down something other than water begins to be exposed. In this case bare rock. Now bare rock is the story which is coming to both places no matter what. That is part of what Earth is doing. It is rotating and it is being healed by those who are playing a role in this story.

Yet there is another door which has to stay open. And that means Ozone isn’t the answer. God does something with atoms called doing the mixing and if we try to become matchmaker we mess things up. And that means we are still trying to figure out the things that are to come. And if we can’t see it then we are not ready for the really deep stuff regarding the Ozone Hole. It is perhaps the one item on our agenda and that is because if we imply that man can fix it then maybe there will be a rogue nation who will try to blow it up.

Lets be honest. It would have an effect if they use an Ozone Hole Laser. If they don’t have one a Nuclear Bomb would have zero effect. All of our bombs, if blown up would only affect outer space. So if you want a safe place to blow up stuff try one of the poles. The blast would be carried up and it would settle out above the earth because the purpose of the Pole is to carry up those things that are poison to earth. Now if you want to set one off invite me and then I will pray that we are in the hole deep enough.

Being in a deep hole is really the key to this story. For the Ozone Hole is part of the Sampo and that means if the Sampo is still broken then it may be unwise to tell people to be at the center of a Nuclear Blast and tell them it won’t hurt to be in the blast zone. I don’t think I said that but one doesn’t sit under a blast zone without there being some long term affect on the body.

So I wrote about the Nuclear Bomb to prove a point that men are not yet wise enough to understand things. God fixes things and men wreck things. Why? Because they think they understand. They don’t. If you claim not to understand then it means God helps me understand and that means I have to think even deeper to help you.

Lets bring you to a deeper conclusion than ever before. You have tried to fix the Ozone Layer and have failed. It doesn’t get fixed it gets worse. A wise man would add at this point “That means that didn’t work”. So lets keep working at it. So if you are insistent on being foolish and trying to fix what isn’t broken then you are a tweaker who fixes things. A tweaker is a scientist who is known to tweak and they takes ideas and they fix them according to what men want. Men will set up a design based on infill of the land. That means the next thing they will do is wait for the land to be revealed, which it will.

Then they will take land and began creating a dust storm. The dust storm will rise until it hits a wind and then the wind will carry it to one point of the land. Then they create another plume of dust and that too will carry to different points of land. Once those plumes of dust are carried from place to place you can call them t. Now t is part of the story I fight. If a Tweaker can adjust the flow of dust until it is Time then they can flash it with a laser or another heating instrument, perhaps Haarp, and then it will fry out a layer of Ozone which they then hope will swivel back, based again on chance or expositing of concept until the wind shifts back towards the pole.

Now there are spirits who are trying to counter these forces of men and they try and try and try so that men say “Its a war with nature.”

The next part to the Ozone hole is its mystery. As in all stories there are things that don’t make sense. One is the hole itself is getting bigger at different seasons. And if there is ever a time when it seems to close that is no different then someone who is swimming. It isn’t meant to last forever it is meant to reopen. If it does last longer than normal it could be there is another problem that is being dealt with. At that stage God would begin to blow and blow and blow with storm after storm after storm to try and reopen it. If that fails He can try resuscitation and that is mouth blown. Think of God as being able to translate Himself into any size. And then take what is there and blow into it the breath of life. That means He would just breath.

Now if Earth is destroyed because we destroy the Ozone Layer that doesn’t make sense to some. After all if I am writing about the danger that means men will listen. Not always. I had a dream of disaster and God did show me it could any of a number of things. Everything from invasion to storm after storm to eternal darkness to a massive collision with an asteroid. These were dreams but after dozens of dreams that show you things you begin to wonder if you are supposed to say something. So I write down a few that make sense to others. Many were symbolic and are clearly symbolic. I try to leave those out. Others are partly symbolic and partly real. I try to keep track of those.

Now if I am dealing with an Ozone Hole conspiracy it probably was Operation Starfish which I read about. It is a bomb that was supposed to be in the atmosphere and it started the sky on fire. Someone wrote a book about Thor and it was part of the history of this bomb. They thought that the end result is the Ozone Hole. If he had influence and was a Christian then why should anyone listen to me? I guess that is why I don’t go out of my way to try and promise this. I think it is Gods timing. I asked Him for a 100 chapters minimum so He is helping write it based on that level of trying to write six chapters a week. I think I’m close because I have to pray each night and many of those nights are tear filled because I think. And thinking isn’t of trouble but of prayer which I like to do. It is my gift and it is my blessing and I don’t want to lose it. Ever. I just want to pray because I have fun even when I can’t hear God as much as I would wish.

If I owned the Ozone Hole and if I were to control it I would first see if there were anyone there. I would scout out the land and I would make sure that the area was empty. Then I would set up a perimeter and that perimeter would be filled with people who are about to grab land. Land is one of the most precious commodities in or on earth and to receive a new parcel of land which is about to rise out of the sea is worth its weight in gold.

Since I am part of this story I ask that those who are reading this write it for me with one word. Joel claimed it first. Now that might sound foolish but check the date and check your computers and I have stated that I claimed that new land rising up from the North Pole.

Now I want that land for several reasons but because it is going to be part of the Sampo. The revolving tree that is even now being built. Now that part of it I can cover in another chapter but I want to be there when the land is revealed because hot air is going to start coming down through that vent in the sky. And that means that the land under it is about to be revealed as a land which is meant to be fertile. And if there were one place on earth that I wanted it would be there for it would be a huge island and it would be round and it would be at the top of the world.

And if people build skyscrapers and pay the most for the Penthouse suite then I want that land with my name on it. No more will it be called the North Pole because that part is going to be moved. Not the holes which will remain there but because the poles are about to switch. And that means what is Greenland, the North Pole and other parts will be switched in a switch which is guaranteed to make people laugh. The North Pole will simply become the North Hole or the hole where there was no one who wanted land.

Now if I search with all my heart I find that there is nothing that is there as yet. It isn’t quite time for the land to rise. And that means it isn’t going to rise in a year or two. It will take a dozen years to rise up and even then it isn’t going to be pretty. It will be covered with goo and that goo is the composites of junk from around the world. It is also the yunk that was at the bottom of the worlds largest glacier.

Well, I claimed it anyway because I want that yunk. I have had an idea and here it is. I want that yunk because I am a rock collector. I have this idea that will cost billions and will produce only rocks. Now the idea behind it is to create an industry and that industry isn’t just about gems or gold its about rocks. I have this theory that if part of a gravel pit is turned into a pit of wonder it would help answer questions of people. Such as “Where does glacial till come from?” “Where do people get their gravel?” And so on.

I know that sounds simple but when I write my ideas I freeze up and I don’t mean Popsicle at the pole station. I mean that I can talk to God but when I try to speak it I can’t. I think there are people who will read it and think its dumb.

Anyway its not but I sometimes think that. Anyway the idea is one of separation. Like the wheat from the chaff. The problem is that God saw is I wanted to go to the middle of nowhere and try to utilize this idea. It would work because trucks shouldn’t have to rumble by day and night. So what if God saw this idea already and had it put into work through the Sampo or the Sampler. Like a Poplar or a Templar who went out and saw it and marveled and thought it meant you could transform anything into gold. He would wait for it to work in a distant realm but no one came to fix it so he gave up and went home discouraged. That was a true story.

Anyway God had a better idea and I did turn it over to Him. Now this idea was put together more than 40,000 years ago which means that idea is already thought of. It is. People wanted specific elements for specific purposes. Even cesium. There were other elements which came out. Gold, platinum lead but not with the poison side to it. It was a non metallic lead which was free of impurities. All these things were part of the story of the Sampo. It produced what was needed. Now men want these things and say “We have mines and we get what we need.” The problem with mines is that they are part of the hurt of man. Men go into them and they collapse. Not all but many do. Some are affected with gas such as methane and a simple spark can trigger a massive collapse. On and on it go. People want Opal but they figure it has to be in chunk form. What if it did come up in blocks made of opal. Would that be a disappointment? In a way it would because then the value would drop and you’d see it everywhere.

So God set a rule that gems and other precious commodities would be given to men as gifts. And that meant those who prayed would receive a grant to a piece of land and on it would say “Under this land within ten feet is one treasure.” And it would state “It is man or it is God or natural.” Then those men would go to the land and dig it up and then they would sell what they had found. That land would be on Royal land.

My idea was different and God doesn’t mind different ideas. It was based on a simple equation of two things. First gravel. Gravel is everywhere even in countries that are poor. It is usually composed of glacial till which is made up of rocks collected during the journey across the land. This means a tiny, tiny percent is valuable. In an entire gravel pit you might find a couple hundred thousand dollars worth of gemstones. And that is if you searched for them day after day for years and years and years. It wouldn’t be worth it except for one thing. The technology would. For that technology would be adapted based on instantaneous scans. As the gravel passed over anything within a certain size would be cast off and marked with a laser in some fashion. It would pass through a scanner where someone who had to watch gravel all day could look at it and add it to his collection. Once a week he would take it into a market where he would sell it. That would be for the guy who has to sit in the booth. Now that doesn’t sound exciting but think of it as an extra bonus of a couple dollars a minute added to your pay check.

The next step would be to separate the wheat from the chaff. On a chart there would be a list of soil types from across the country. As the chart is built up it would list the soil that was found with the gemstone or whatever material was found. That would be a glimpse into the soul of the country. Think of these gravel deposits as listing all known soil types of the age in which they were deposited. This knowledge would be made available to scientists from around the globe. It would list the soil, the type of clay, its compositions and its fertility. Now a lot of this soil would be gone but there would be traces that would give positive identification. Unknown types would be added to an unknown list and that would be given to soil samplers who’s job was to test soil for composition, depth, and fertility. These samples would then be added to a worldwide database to find out which compares with which. Eventually it will show exact matches from different parts of the globe where parts of that land were matched with parts of other lands. This will give scientists a chance to mix and match land to trace the route the women who had to rebuild the earth followed. It will also grant new knowledge of the earth because some of it will never be identified until man goes out into the Universe.

And this is where higher technology will take affect. Lets say for example that once a day there is a scan for a meteorite that fell to earth. We will use present data of men to try and determine its location when discovered and when deposited. So if there were those who kept track in heaven of every piece of debris that fell there would be an account and a deposit trace. That isn’t a joke and it is real. Men in heave went there with one desire. To continue to count stars or to trace those things that fell to earth. When they get back they want to be part of this idea because it is one of the few things that make sense in identifying things of time. These will be part of the heritage which we can pass on to our children.

Now to build these machines means going into automation. For some of the material will be magnetic but chondrites or stony meteors do not have any metal in them. If they do they are a mix and most do not. So when we hit the jackpot region of 34,000 years or so ago we will find that we are suddenly hit with asteroids from mars and from the moon. This scattered shot across the entire country of the North. And this means there will be millions of dollars worth of lunar and Martian material that will be revealed.

Other things that will be found include rocks. That is the main purpose for most gravel pits. Some are of high quality and they will be used by men who are searching for perfect rocks to build walls and bridges. Remember these were people of the past who have been in heaven and are aching to do something with their hands. Being in heaven is like being in a great palace. It is filled with wonder beyond understanding. Yet God made men to be men and they want to be involved in things. If there is no need to win souls anymore then who will teach them? They want to be teachers and that means those people of this age who have little knowledge. They will teach.

Now as far as the stones they will be separated by weight and size. They will be given to men who will use them to build beautiful stone work with original arches across the land. We might build everything from concrete but it wasn’t designed to last for more than 50 years. Stones are meant to last for a thousand. So think of this story as being one of history. For that which is filling the North Pole is most gravel and I want it.

Now if that sounds foolish then let me continue. I have other ideas for it. It will be used to build land. Gravel is a fine composite of materials and it is stronger than sand which is blown away by wind, rain, people and things like water. It will destroy men’s works because it mixes with silt and the addition of silt is the part of this story that needs to be fixed. For silt dries but it becomes part of the soil. And soil is made up of billions of composites which really don’t need to be separated. Yet if this were an experiment then it might be okay to try and see what happens.

So lets say we took soil that was fine grained. It is all dark and doesn’t seem to have any color. Lets just assume that soil is made up of so much color that it is all white. So we take out the silt, which is really soil, and we then filter the soil according to color. Now believe it or not there are artists who work with sand they have to color. Imagine that suddenly there arose a new market based on 100 soil types of color. And each one could be filtered out even more so if you wanted a special kind of color like chartreuse you would send a sample color from a chart, like a number used in HTML, and suddenly you had within a few days a vial of specially colored soil that was really real. And it was pure and it was beautiful and it was truly the one thing you could not imagine could come from nature. Now repeat this with other colors of sand especially white and suddenly you have a rainbow of colors that were filtered off by weight or color. Now soil of weight, such as magnetic sands, could be used in computers. It could be turned into electrical conduits or for nanotechnology or for a 100 other ideas you could imagine.

Suddenly the idea of spending a few billion to practice with something simple like a gravel pit doesn’t sound so foolish after all. It becomes a place where these things become a dream of men. And that is what dreams do. They give us an edge and they make us part of the story. And they are so cool that we are part of the story of what God desires for us. He has other ideas that He would like to add to the gravel pit conception. That might be to turn it into an amusement park once the gravel is gone. Then make it available as a swimming park with part for kids and part for adults. Part for fishing and part for a dome like Eden in England. It would be the one thing man could do with gravel pits instead of trying to cover them back up or being forced to find soil to cover them back up. They are out of the wind and they are part of nature and they are meant to be excavated and explored by men.

For we will be surprised at the junk that somehow ends up in our machines. We will find artifacts that are in the ten thousand year old level that cannot be there. Old farm implements and rakes and tools. Things we think someone might have buried. But don’t throw away ideas because maybe they were real. Maybe they are really that old.

So lets think about this story for a minute. It holds promise for man and it means if people do what is right then can have ideas that hold promise. I dream all the time and I think of these things as being of God. I have a million ideas yet to be discovered and that is because God wants men to waste money.

Now that sounds contrary to good sense so lets add stupidity to it. Men build atomic bombs and we call it good sense. So if that is good sense then maybe God has a few stupid ideas. If we listen He will teach us and we will grow. If we listen we will wonder things like “Did God ever think of this?” I admit I think thoughts like that but God is wise and He doesn’t say much. I think its because He likes ideas and if He says “Yes, I saw that idea used once and it destroyed thirty worlds who fought over the treasure that was found” that might discourage us. Or it might teach us to use wisdom because suddenly we are all thinking “I want that guys job who sits in the booth.” In reality it might be the stonework because one guy wisely asks only for red stone and not white. And it is the first bridge of granite made from Ontario Granite that was carried to the North Pole and then back to Ontario again. People will look at it in awe and wonder if God has a sense of humor.

Or imagine someone wants green stone and they build a foot bridge of stone that is hard to walk on. Because somehow green stone survived and it was soapstone and no one can walk on soapstone very well. So he had to scrap the idea and send the stone back postage paid by us because we didn’t’ put out warnings.

Now imagine we come across artifacts which cannot be explained and we want specialists to take a look. There is no doubt we’ll find arrowheads and stone hammers and implements of culture because Natives did go to these places where there was stone or where it was carried and we can identify regions of Native habitation by things we find. These stones can go into a museum collection and be part of the gravel pit finding.

And lets cover fossils. Fossils are like fossils and there would be shark teeth and dinosaur bones and clams and so on. These could be added because they could be shot out as examples which could be made by people who are expert into location or type and it would give people joy. I’ve thought about this and also about rock types. Knowing locations of things can mean you can create collections of things. For example putting out vials of colored soil to give illustrations of what is available. Types of magnetic sands and even colors that vary from black to silver. Soils that vary in color and composition. Rock types that can be given to visitors as an example of minerals that are found and each one will be different so if there are a thousand types they can come back and collect them as souvenirs. And for professionals who want to sell things we can provide him with rocks based on type and composition.

For geologists who are seeking knowledge of specific regions. For archaeologists who want to know what culture was like at a certain time in history. For kids who want a show of things that are fallen from the sky. Those these will be rare and valuable perhaps they can have a prize of some of the common meteors. And local planetariums can use our knowledge to help identify when a particular star fell and where.

These are part of dreams and they mean that suddenly people want to be part of it. It becomes a dream that goes into levels that make up the story. For if we take the gravel pit and part of it does turn over into an Eden then where do we draw the line? When they are in need of a certain soil then we can be there to help them find it. Some countries are based on soil types not found here. Well, that means we have to find a soil that is found here and will help plants imported from other countries grow here. If we are in a tropical location suddenly the North Pole will return to its true root. It will become tropical and that means we have to find a way to fill up the world with gravel. For gravel is filling the Sampo. It is filling it up because the Sampo became plugged up and that means as the earth revolves the gravel will be raised up. And as the gravel is raised up the materials that come out will grow in color and intensity because they were washed and purified 1,000 times a day. They will be the finest and purest sands that exist on earth. And that means they will be so fine they will be nano and probably the most dangerous of things. So when we reach this stage there has to be filters added to the system that are sub micron and that is going beyond what is presently available in most labs. This sand has to be rebuilt because it is so fine it has been reduced to nothing. Now that may not make sense to some but the earth is built on a rotational platform. And that means it is built up of three things. Those three things are the heart of the rotation, the rotational sling and the sling that carries things up the tree. Those are man made and they need rebuilding. The problem is they became clogged with silt and silt is super fine and there are no machines that can handle them because they went wild and went into super fine status. They have to be replaced and that means only God can fix them.

These are super dangerous jobs and even God has to find a way to protect us because He is spiritual which means material matter does not interact with Him. So if you try to touch Him naturally you will hear “Don’t touch me” because he fells things that are painful. And we are painful beings because of Sin and sin. These are toxic matters and we in earth are quarantined because of Sin and Sin is toxic.

Now there are things on they conveyers which are still workable so that part is fine. They just shut down when things stopped working. The middle part is the one area that needs rebuilding. God can fix it but if men want to be part of it then there are none left who can. Most of those left there went South and that also means evil. They cannot think straight anymore. They are part of the liquid that came to be which was made up of ice and other things that were made up of other things like metallic compounds of super fine ice. Now super fine ice is a composition of two elements. The first is time and the second is tree sap. Tree sap is that stuff we call black oil. It is part of the tree but it wasn’t meant to be black. It was meant to be made from the superfine material that was at the center of the tree. So that means black oil will vanish soon because it carries too much toxin in it. And that toxin is about to infect the current land mass of Greenland when the ice melts. People will go there to dig for oil and they will find it in spades. The problem is this is where Sin hid his heart and the heart of Sin is the most toxic oil in existence. To put it into perspective it doesn’t crawl or swim it just is toxic. Like filled with oil of sludge which is filled with PCB’s. It is so toxic it is doubtful that you can fix it.

These will be moved but Greenland will be uprooted and that part of Greenland which is oil filled will have itself carried to the center of the sun where it will slowly work its way to the top. It will then become sludge on the surface of the Sun. Those are called sunspots and they are just garbage God throws there occasionally. Sometimes it flares and that means it is being burned off. They can be dangerous to an Ozone Free earth but don’t aim for that aim to let it be and let God care for the earth.

Now the Sun doesn’t have any free ozone its just that the sun has a lot of garbage. That garbage is the stuff that falls into it. That means it is the part of the sun that is filled with free stuff for all men. That is how they found the Bels tooth or Wisdom’s Tooth. It is one of those things the Sun didn’t send up. It was because the sun could not burn it up. It didn’t burn.

Men wanted to know what the sun was made of and so God told them. They wanted it and so God gave it to them. The only problem is they should have asked for one with no crack. That crack in Bels tooth was the problem He saw immediately.

Now Bel’s tooth really is the tooth of a dragon and it is about the size of Rhode Island. It is big and it would fit into a chair and that chair would be the size God sits in when He is in His real chair. That is big but then again God is big. He walks as a man and talks like a man but He can talk to a dragon with no problem. He is able to communicate with every species including the Sparrow and the Swallow and the Bear. The problem is that men try animals and animals talk to God. Until now that meant if you killed a cow quickly it didn’t complain. If you spend days trying to kill one that cow has a friend. So cruelty to animals will end. So will wolves and rabid animals. If the dog in naturally vicious that species will die out. If there are battles in the ocean over a whale the whale will win and men will die.

If there is ownership disputes and someone kills someone that person who started it all will die.

If there are wars on earth God will stop them and men will die.. If there are things in space men fight over men will die.

If there are things His children do that are only spiritual they were punished depending on severity. If God did something wrong then He would punish Himself. That might sound wrong but every king has to realize they have responsibility to the least of their flock. And most men are not able to bear that because it requires being up night and day worrying about things.

So who then wants responsibility? Many. I don’t. I’ve never asked for it. Even when God offered it to me I didn’t ask back. I just kept silent. I didn’t want it. But God wants me to know responsibility of some kind so I write. And in that is choice for it means people read it. And thus I pray that I would not make mistakes and that someone who knows more than me would edit it for mistakes or problems. And that means it might have to go to heaven to be fixed. And that means God might have to order me to stop because I just keep on writing day and night and drive everyone crazy.

So if so I then cease this story so I can do something else like write a few letters.

In the meantime keep dreaming because God in in control.